before I go to new Zealand, 

I could message him to apologize.

 as long as everything back to normal. 

maybe not as I wanted. 

but at least I do not want all this goes on.

 I was pleased with what had happened. 

God destined him to attend warn me.

 I admit, I'm also miss him so much. 

the person i knew back then .

before,  we spend a lot of time together, 

eat together, share problems and tears. 

May Allah forgive us.

 i hope u're just fine there.