that dancing fingers

its been a long time.

such a very long period.

for me to write again. 

many things happen. 

its June 19 2014.

lemme get started.

i am not the same person as i started write here.

i am total different from who i was.

but now I'm a lady.

i'm a grown up girl.

from nowhere to everywhere.

i don't know where my start point.

but i definitely know my ends.

honestly. 

i'm a bit ashamed for who i was.

such a silly girl chasing up shadows.

i was nothing but a shameless brave girl.

trying to put everything in front.

without knowing that was such a great threat.

have no idea what the consequences of all the actions.

trying to look cool and great.

but end with REGRET

but now.

that shameless girl are not trying to fix everything.

but trying to get up with all wounds and scar.

brought by the old silly act before.

she is. i am. 

that silly girl.

before I go to new Zealand, 

I could message him to apologize.

 as long as everything back to normal. 

maybe not as I wanted. 

but at least I do not want all this goes on.

 I was pleased with what had happened. 

God destined him to attend warn me.

 I admit, I'm also miss him so much. 

the person i knew back then .

before,  we spend a lot of time together, 

eat together, share problems and tears. 

May Allah forgive us.

 i hope u're just fine there.

alhamdulillah .
May Allah bless us .

i've safely arrived here ,
where ?
Auckland , New Zealand .

at the NZ Airport .
actually there's no problem .
but , it was . later .
when the customs blocked us .
maybe our beg too much ,
or maybe we're muslims ?
okay okay .
think positive .
but still ,
there're only us *including Pakistanians guys .
we're Muslims anyway .
we're tourist , not terrorist .
till the very moment ,
we've done with them .
yeayyy !

and for the shelter ,
mysis , Diana rent an apartment .
well , not too big and not too small .
just nice .
the very interesting part ,
the apartment just beside a beautiful church .
its called St. Paul Church .
i just thought , to visit them .
but , hehehe . i'm not .
me myself , busy travel the other interesting part of NZ .

one of them was Sky Tower .
the highest place i've ever been .

its beautiful isnt it ?

thats all for now .
#mum , dad . i miss you .

today ,
april 6 , Two Zero One Three .
so , i just stayed at sister's .
watching tv .
Hollywood Heights , Greek ,
Crime Scene Investigation ,
and so on .
and my sis , out of the blu ,
" nak tengok wayang tak ? "
and i just , " em ? ohkayyy . "
since my older sis not at home ,
she made us to make this kinda decision .

well , actually , we're planned to go there before night .
but my sis too addicted with editing and so on .
so , she said , " lepas maghrib la ek ? "
my stomach rang and rang every rythm ever existed .
sooooo hungryyyyy :(

so , we end up filled our 'tangki' at
Kenny Rogers .
and guess what ?
i ordered the wrong choice !
it was tangy spagetti ,
andddd ?
its sooooo masam laaahh !
thanks to kennys , i had those delicious cupcakes .
chocolate cupcake or i can call it brownies actually .

so , the stomach has been filled .
and we're heading to Golden Cinema .
intenddd to watch movies lahh .
so , i'm hoping a GREAT movie .
andd she choose " 2 Kalimah "
starred by Nora Danish , Yana Shamsuddin and Shaheizy Sam .

at first , i thought i would be a great story .
well , it didnt .
how badluck i have today .

but still ,
ALHAMDULILLAH .
He sent his lights for me thru the movie .
i could've cried . but , me . too shy .
Allah . thanks .

since i've been busy this entire time ,
i don't really know details of my activities i've done .
oh welll , i'm not at my home .
i'm at sister's .

so , i've left my father at home .
and guess what ?
he's not really well as i leave him that day .
maybe he's just missing my mum .
but HAHAHA , thats not it .

i've been here for couple weeks ,
and have done some work .
as i clean up the mess , the house itself .
ohmyyy . since when i've become so like what we call *rajin* ?
hahaha !
me , myself , dont even take it as reality .
what a joke !

later , well , next week ,
i will depart to Auckland New Zealand ,
with my gorgeous sisters and a cute niece .
lil bit nervous .
but excited as well :D
c'mon ! i can't help it anyway ,
i never been there before .
thats y when this came up ,
the feelings just glowin' !

so . thats it ! i'll write about my time there .
have fun .
May Allah bless you :)

muhtaram . i don't know you anymore :')

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